ahhh... blythe... i love youuu!
I hate the stigmas that get attached to single mothers. Its not fair that we get labeled as instant whores and baggage carriers just looking for a man to come along to take care of them and their kids. I know there are girls out there like that but not everyone is.
I never realized how hard it was going to be for me to date being an unwed mother. As soon as "kid" comes into the conversation the guy checks out mentally. I am the queen of first dates. I never get the second date. When I was pregnant I thought about what it was going to be like when I would try to date. I had no idea it would be this difficult and depressing.
I work hard and take good care of my son. I want the same chance at love as everyone else. These people are missing out on getting to know two amazing people.
in other news. this is how i feel today.. like a big ol'
like don't touch me with a ten foot pole.
isn't that crab cool? she is wearing all black like me!
What's your favorite drink or cocktail? What's in it?
Question submitted by charm.vox.com
HAWAIIAN F'N MARTINIS!!!!!!!! here is the recipe for some good good lovin. **let this marinate in yer fridge for about 2-3 days minimum for extra good lovin.** Yield: approximately 12 (4-ounce) servings Layer the pineapple wedges into the jar. Pour in the remaining ingredients and allow the pineapples to marinate for at least two days. To serve, ladle approximately 4 ounces of the liquor into a stainless steel shaker half filled with ice. Shake 30 times, and strain into a chilled martini glass. Garnish with a wedge of marinated pineapple and enjoy! this is the Roy's restaurant recipe, which in my opinion is the best! i'm also a sucker for midori sours and anything with malibu rum. i'm a classy broad, what can i say??
What's one thing that you hope to do or accomplish before the end of this year?
I hope to get myself on a better schedule spiritually. I want to have set times for prayer, meditation, ritual and actually DO it. I'm not the most regimented person, but I wish I was. I want to finish writing my tradition and work it. Spirituality is really important to me, its helped me in so many ways. Finding Shiva and Ganesh this year made me ecstatic and also floored me. I didn't know anything about them but I was so intrigued. The more I read the more I felt like they were my kindred spirits. I want to write my tradition in love and respect of them. Trying to meld Hindu, Wiccan, Pagan and other leanings has proved to be a challenge for sure. But listening to my intuition and researching the hell out of everything has helped tremendiously. I am slowly but surely on my way!
Upon arriving to my mom's house to pick up Tim, their dog Max came bounding out of the house and proceeded to pee on my foot. i was wearing flip flops. yuk! Luckily it wasn't much pee and I love that pup to death so it didn't bother me too much. A quick wipe down with a wet paper towel and I was back to normal.
Timmy was inside watching Spongebob Squarepants and I ran up to him and loved all over him. It was so great to see him!! He was a dirty little bug and smelled of camping. I took him home and threw him in the shower. D came home from work to take us out to dinner.. Tim's choice. Can you guess what he picked? Thats right, mexican food. His favorite.
At dinner, Tim requested a slumber party. I told him that boys usually have "sleep overs" and girls usually have "slumber parties". Ahh. So then he requested a sleep over. Just him and I. So saturday night we're going to have a sleep over! We will watch movies, eat popcorn, make cookies, tell spooky stories and he will get to sleep in my bed with me. That is his favorite thing EVER... sleeping in my bed with me.
Last night at bedtime he wanted to sleep in my bed with me so so so bad. He was giving me the "cutey" smile and batting his eyelashes at me and giving me hugs and kisses. So I let him.. then I tossed and turned in the boiling heat between two boiling hot bodies.. Tim and my cat, Sid. Tim doesn't like to lay on his own side, he likes to lay on my side touching me at all times. Usually i'll wake up with his arm draped across my face. He is such a cuddle bug. Its nice in the winter to cuddle up with him.. but in southern california summers it kills me!
Timmy has been away on a summer vacation roadtrip with my parents for 10 days!!! He will get home tomorrow and I can't wait to see him!! It was a very nice child-free 10 days.. but being a single mom for 8 years and then suddenly not having a child for that many days was weird. Usually when I get home from work I take care of dinner for him, play with him and help him with homework. Its very fulfilling to me even though it is a lot of work.
With him being gone it made me realize how much joy he brings to my life and how I'm so glad to have him in my life. He is a sweet, loving and gentle boy.
This week coming home from work I just sit around - I have nothing to do for the first time in my life! I get bored and restless. I think being away from each other really cemented our love for each other and made me appreciate him a lot more.
I can't wait to see him tomorrow!!
